A year's gone by & it's still hard to accept that you're not here anymore, does it ever get any easier ? I read a sort of verse one time that said something about if you only look back you miss all the good things coming, I bet the writer hadn't lost anyone or they would know that you need to look back or you will forget the good things that have happened & you were one of the few good things to have happened but now we do look back with smiles more than tears (sometimes !) Michael is so a mini-you, I bet your mom & dad find that hard but they must also be grateful that you are 'living on' in Michael & be proud of him as they were of you, I hope they are. He's really growing up Andy, does big boy things & his baby boy seems like ages ago, scared to blink in case we miss any of it with him. I hoped friends etc would leave their memories of you on here so that Michael could get to know you better, perhaps they find it hard to put in words or are still hurting from missing you but will some day come here even if to only let rip about something or rub your nose in it when your team does badly. Anyway, I babble on too much but I reckon Michael's used to that by now & is learning to filter out the bits he's not interested in (selective hearing isn't it) Sleep tight Andy & if you are watching over Elayne, thank you cos I can't be there all the time. XXX