I've not been here for awhile & for that I'm truly sorry, life has a habit of getting in the way of things that really do matter. We've just been back to Cornwall & stopped by your special place to say 'hi' it's lucky it's a bit out of the way cos I I'd be carted away to the funny farm if folk heard me chatting away, to the sea! I don't care, you need to hear the news. Elayne visits a lot but I reckon you know that. Michael is a credit to you both, going to school now, yeah, I know, where did that time go. He's got 2 more cousins to boss around (he thinks!) he's had a couple of his laser treatments & was such a brave boy. He looks more like you every time we see him Andy & that's lovely & sad all at the same time I promise I won't leave it so long again, Michael's growing so fast I could update you weekly if not daily. Sleep sweetly mate, love & miss you just as much but with more smiles than tears these days & I think that's how it should be. xxx

Just had to tell you... Last night I jumped in to bed and Michael was fast asleep. As I got under the covers Michael let out a little chuckle, so cute. It reminded me of how you used to mumble & smile in your sleep and how I could sometimes get a conversation out of you! I chuckled back at Michael - just to see what he would do, well he laughed again! It made me proper chuckle, which made Michael laugh again. On and on we went for about 10 minutes. Michael still fast asleep said 'stop it Mummy, you're so funny' I lay on my pillow and the smiles and chuckling turned to sadness and tears - felt so alone and bloody annoyed that you were not here to share it with me and see how funny your little man is. I couldn't call you and say 'ah come and look at what our Michael is doing' I had no one to tell! I guess I've got plenty of these tiny moments that everyone else takes for granted ahead of me. As much as I will still keep smiling for our boy, I will always feel the sadness in my heart. All my love Husband. xxxxx

....Home.... Home is not a place on earth, Of wood or brick or stone; For I've gone on to better things, Now heaven is my home. Don't listen for my footsteps, To fall across your floor; Don't grieve for me forever, Or wait to see me at your door. Take comfort in my memory, And you'll never be alone; For I am so much richer, Now that heaven is my home. Don't listen now to hear my voice, Or look here for my face; For I have a home of perfect peace, And I am now there in that place. As long as you remember me, You'll never be alone; I will be here waiting for you, Now heaven is my home. Alison Chambers Coxsey For Elayne & for Michael I don't know if heaven exists,I'd like to think that if it does, Andy is safe there & is watching over you both & feeling pretty proud of you, his love & his little man. xx